I believe in Christ!

 I can't see my life without the Gospel of Jesus Christ! Tonight's institute has brought back to me a lot of memories and testimonies that i gained. I TRULY love the Gospel of Jesus Christ with all my heart!!! The struggles that we go through it's a true battle for each one of us. Well, my mission was a battle for two sides. One was to invite others to Christ and the other one was to perfect myself and be more Christlike. Does this sound familiar to anyone? Tonight it was a flood of memories to me, where my desire to be even more obedient has become stronger, be more consecrated and devoted to the Gospel even higher, to preach the Gospel and be a good example and many other good desires that we should all have are ready to act. Ready to fight the adversary and be happy. I am fighting right now, either am i making the right decision or not i know that i am acting and fighting the man of God that is in me. To learn to rely on Heavenly Father hasn't been easy for me all these years but i am getting there. I think that i got more courage and confidence in myself than before, and that i have become stronger spiritually and emotionally.
 Coming from a very understanding family with loving parents, i think my life has been truly blessed by that and that i was able to meet the missionaries when i was 18, and receive the Restored Gospel of Jesus Christ. How wonderful is to know that there is a God that knows through what you are going through, He knows how you feel and how fast your heart is beating at the moment. He knows how much you are willing to give in order to help Him to bless others. He knows your truly desire to become better everyday. Don't give up He tells you and when you hear Him whispering through His spirit, you are embraced with His love and care. Look around and see who's been helping you, those are His angels, sent specifically for you! My heart is full of gratitude right now and i have no words to describe how i feel but i can tell you that my face is full of tears of being grateful and blessed at this moment. Never in my life has been easy but since i gained a strong testimony about the Gospel of Jesus Christ, my life has been the same, which i mean you never can run away from trials and tribulations but with the Gospel of Jesus Christ you can make it through tomorrow with a smile on your face and trusting the Lord, everything will be alright. And not only that, but also everything is happening is for own good and progression. We are the ones that make the decisions, we are the ones who make our own path. It's our choice to choose from the right and wrong, but sometimes we find it difficult to know what is right, i know for myself, beacuse i am right now in a situation like this, but i want to share this with you because it helps me to let it out there and find strength. I can't wait till next fast Sunday and come up there and bear my testimony, i want to do it now, i want to share with those that wont be able or cant't be there to hear it.
 I know that my Savior lives! I know that those early apostles went through a lot of persecution, as for Joseph Smith as well, and all the church members. Tonight at the institute i learned why the apostasy came in those time, and it went for so long. My understanding might not be fully complete and please forgive me if i am not saying everything right but i pray for the spirit and for you to understand what i mean. If you don't know what the word apostasy mean, look it up, it'll help you to understand even more. So, the church fell into apostasy because of the church members, rejecting the word of God, denying, being offended by the truth, embarrassed of what they have done and forgetting the gift of repentance, of choices that they made that brought them to misery and then blaming God for that, of many other things that lead those people to kill the apostles and reject them. Why are people so spiritually but even physically blind of what they see and especially hear. Wake up He says to us and we are still sleeping. I have gone so far not to give up but to keep fighting!
Remember by small and simple things!
"Awake! and arise from the dust, and hear the words of trembling parent, whose limbs ye must soon lay down in the cold and silent grave, from whence  no traveler can return; a few more days and i go the way of all the earth. But behold, the Lord hath redeemed my soul from hell; I have beheld his glory, and i am encircled about eternally in the arms of his love. And i desire that ye should remember to observe the statues and the judgement of the Lord; behold, this hath been the anxiety of my soul from the begging." ~ 2 Nephi 1:14-16

These are some pictures of me leaving on my mission. It was Sunday April 1st, 2007. I know most thought it was a joke that i was leaving :) hahaha

      

 I cried a lot, so that's why my face is so read and white (:

 The future missionary wearing already two name-tags (:  

 At the airport, half of the branch came to say good bye, made it even harder for me to leave and cry more (:

 The same day i was sat apart as a full time missionary to serve in Russia, Moscow West. 

 The mission President, President and Sister Ashby 

The time has come and with you or not the Gospel shall be spread, but if you join it shall be merrier and your life can be truly and fully blessed. Remember who you are, you are the child of God, repent and come back to Him. Don't let the adversary to take over your life and especially your decisions, you can do better. I love the Gospel of Jesus Christ with all my heart i leave this testimony with all of you in the sacred name of Jesus Christ, Amen.